last class assignment...

damn, i've been procrastinating so much of today. i have ONE more assignment due tomorrow for my music cognition class, and then i have no more classes EVER. it really doesn't feel different, but i know it will soon enough. then it's onto the master's thesis...that's gonna be one hell of an ordeal. due august 31st with almost no work done on it so far. it's funny that i'm going to be putting so much time, effort, and money into it when it's most likely just gonna hang idly on the brew room wall once i start my own brewpub.

ahh, i can't wait...such an amazing feeling when you actually realize what you want to do (and more importantly, what you would be happy doing every day). i never had it before. i did my undergrad in information sciences solely because i knew i was good at it, and that i would probably be content with a job in the field if it worked out that way. after 4 years of that, i didn't know what i wanted to do, but i knew it wasn't IT. The idea of a cubicle-ized existence, drowning in memos, bound in red tape, seemed to be the farthest thing from interesting. due to this realization during the end of my PSU years, i happened to start taking classes related to music technology. this, i thought, was interesting. what i didn't realize at the time was that "music technology" is not universally defined. at penn state, this was related to using technology to create new ways of making music, while at mcgill, the making of the music is almost completely erased from the equation. they make the technologies, but when it comes to using them to make art, they back away, putting their hands up, frightened, saying, "oh...ahh...let's find one of those...ah...performers...or...ah...composers...". with a few notable exceptions, no one in the entire program wants to make music. it gets confusing, because dartmouth, for example, has a "Music Technology" degree that is completely the opposite of this. they bring a much more creative, compositional side to the program.

i guess if i had actually been accepted to dartmouth, things may have been different...i may have become an electronic musician, or have gone on to a doctoral degree...it doesn't matter now though. either way, i knew i wasn't going to settle for anything less than finding a job that i was ecstatic about doing every day. and i found that with brewing...i think it may stem from the fact that some part of me always wanted to be a chef. and being a brewer lets me get close, while not shouldering the high levels of stress that come with being a chef. and all the time leading up to this realization, i have just been accumulating degrees, which will definitely support me if something goes awry with the brewing.

shit. all this hopeful thinking about the wonderful days after august 31st has brought me to 3:00am with my project still unfinished...at least it will be over after 1pm tomorrow...

see you on the other side...